Seems like its gonna rain soon ~ the thunder is roar-ing and its scary ~ when i stand outside i can feel the wind blowing and the sound of the wind ~ when i close my eyes its calm me down but when i open my eyes its dark.. pitch black sky without any star blinking.. when i stare at the sky it feels lonely somehow... empty sky without anythg... and here come the rain dripping down, i stand there for awhile cause i wish that the rain could wash away all my worries and trouble that i got, and hope that the sky would help me cry ..
The rain is getting heavier and the sound of the rain somehow creeps me out... but still i stand there...suddenly somethg come out from my brain "overcome ur fear" so do "overcome ur weakness"~ when u have fear here come ur weakness.. everyone can use ur weakness or ur fear to bring u down and you can never win. Thats why i try to hide everythgs from the begining but somehow i spill it out some and its feel weird.. i have to get back to my oldself cover up everythg my weakness my fear...
Sometimes when u really need someone be there for you its hard and no one will be there, cause not everyone or maybe no one will say or call you or even text you or write in the fb says "Hey, i need you be ther for me or Hey im sad accompany for awhile" most of them or maybe just few of thm will call around or chat around or text around asking like "hey you free today? wanna go get some drinks?" or maybe some of thm prefer chating around or texting their friend to shake off their problems. Well, maybe some of ur frens can notice u're in trouble and they ask "somethgs happen?" haha ~ some of them will say "nthgs happen" well this is me somehow ~ "NEVER TELL UR SHIT OUT" hahaha !! coz even u say it out no one can help they listen only nothg can be help thats the truth, hmm.. they say "u will feel much more better if u say it out" but for me its still the same.
Someone like me maybe wont understand that sentence but start from now i wont tell wont ask. When you all say dun care bout you or ur stuff, i'll respect that and i wont ask anymore unless i gone crazy. I will guess everythg myself and i'll get my answer by searching around even it tooks me alot of times. I thk maybe im busybody afterall =.=" hmmm... tat make sense XD Forever i wont understand what humans thk i should keep silence after all =.= coz i realize that even i ask i wont get any answer .. even i get the ans its all a lie duno why but i just know it. And to H i thk sumthg happen towards u.. u did admit u lie and indeed u always answer every question i have in the past u nvr even lie to me since i met you, i still remember u even tell me who u are wif and list down the name XD its really funny at tat time ~ or who u are alone wif even u know i will bite u after u say out XD hahaha ! but thats is past now i hope everythg gonna be just fine soon ~ cheers ~
seems like i bluff alot ~i should go fool around awhile ~
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