To EveRyOnE

haha ~ hello hello hello~~ i'm back everyone and my blog ~ i miss you ~ LOL! hahaha~ okok, be serious for awhile now~ to all my friends and friends and friends sorry to make you guys worried bout me and especially sorry to "J" worried bout me so much~ haha ~ i promise i'll fix thgs up and get back to myself, just bare with it for awhile and you all can stop worry about me now. i can handle thgs on my own ^^ cheers !!

WilL we BeComE StranGerS AgaIn?

The Truth is Every moment, Every Day, Every Hours i've been missing you, haha~ how i wish to spend a great time with you, somehow things just wont go smooth as i thought and this makes me think of something that i should not have been giving a thought about it.. when u told me that you got somethg to tell me and u are serious on it im kinda surprise and hoping that its not the things that i wanna hear about it. im kinda greedy >.< just hate that.

I should not have get into that kind of life and you have been telling me that everything will be just fine and i believe that too but somehow its not that easy when u have step into the life and getting out is harder then i thought. At 1st i dont wanna step out from this but from what my friend ask me the same questions as owes but this time the way of asking is different and im kinda surprise with those words and i understand that somehow.

This few days or week perhaps, alot of stuff i dont wanna hear or scared to hear about it keep going into my ears =.=" at 1st i just dont wanna believe it but somehow it did happen. hahaha ~ anyway, u did tell me its so unfair to me and i accepted it so its my fault anyway to ruin ur current life, im so sorry in that, i might give u a difficult time and trust me i will make ur life back to normal but of coz it might be abit pain at 1st for you im trying to be honest here but as for me the pain will be much more greater thn the previous one i think ~ bahahahaha ~ even typing it out here i can feel the P of myself, LOL ~ haha..

I dont know what ans you will give me although i really really really dont wanna it to be like this.. i really wish that it wont happen. i admit that i always wish that u are beside me even i dont have the time or wat i still will reply all of ur messages i will never missed it unless sumthgs really going on with me. I always remember every word u tell me although i owes pretend duno, haha.. you owes makes me laugh though ^^ hehe.

ChEeRs ~

A glass of cocktail and a few drinks ~ makes my day but somehow it's still tasteless >.< but somehow i enjoy my night chit chat and bluff there ^^ thanks buddy ^^ you did make me laugh and forgt bout thgs for awhile ~ ^^

Still there is someone i wanna reach for yet i cant ^^ haha ~ funny rite ~ a weird sentence after all ~ be there or be gone ~ do it or fail ~

oh well, i will be tough as always ^^ hmm... back to my previous self? haha !! keep everythg for myself and burried it under my pillow ~

CHEERS ~~ raise ur glass and get drunk !!! XD

WeIrD

hmmm... 1st i gonna shout is HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEONG !!!! haha !! may all ur wish come trueeee yaa ~ and of coz im gonna FORCE u save a wish for me ~ ^^

Today seems fun having dinner with with all my frens, but yet i cant believe when we go alfresco i cant even finish up my drink!!! my "illusion" drink... i think really somethings wrong with me even my baka butai-chan fren ask me are u ok why u cant finish up ur drinks =.="

I think still ther is problem with me and i know it but somehow i ignore the problem ... haha... no appetite for few days.. cant sleep well, cant even be my normal self ... "wound can be heal, and scars will remain" what else should i do? i give myself 1 week to get myself back rather .. will i success? hard to say.. maybe? nothing is impossible rite??

I'm tired somehow... at home thgs will just pop-ing up from brain ... cause i couldnt get the answer ... just questions from myself asking "WHY?" i tried to make myself busy and go out with my fren having fun just to put all my questions behind and thats will make me stops thinking for awhile... i duno why i can easily fall asleep at my friend house but not mine =.=" maybe much secure?? much more warm? ned a hug to slp? ... =.=" whack my head better ^^ much more faster to fall asleep~ haha ~

well, nothg much to say now ~ gonna hug my lovely little devil pillow slp now ~ NITEZ everyone~ muacksss

Losing myself

"you are just a normal human, you are not a robot or anything else, its ok to just 'rain' "... well, its true on what u said ... i should just "rain" cause it might feels good, hahaha... i admit that its really hard to bare with ... if you hug me longer i thk i might "rain" ... but still i hold it, haha! i know it really feels good when someone is there for you when u are down or anythg.. you remind me of that cause i have been hold everythg for myself since thn... im losing myself somehow, what should i do now? im lost ... anyone can show me the road? can i find u just for a hug? haha. The scar still remain >.<

QuesTioNs ~

it's JULY !!! yahoo !!! hopefully i can have a lucky month~ hmmm... well, from my previous post ... i havent spill it out yet .. haha.. cause i just don't where to start and how to say it out, DAMN myself .. hahahaha ! ohwell, i will find one day .. soon enough i think..,

ok, questions ~ what are you thinking now? i want to know.... im getting blur and blur dy with this.. im tired of this...

cheerssss for myself ~ dummy christine ~ XD