NeW MonTh ~

ahhh... new month~ still i havent fix my cross.... damn... wanna cry jor cant find a single place to fix it.... been thinking where can i fix it >.< haiz ~ sien de lo~

Qu3sTioNs~

Sometimes you can guess the ans on what a person might say, but yet you cant comfirm it. I was wondering what ans whould you give that night ? but end up u skipped ~ LOLx but somehow i know the answer myself cause i can see it, since you have choose it so why you have to hesitate for the ans???  I shouldn't have gv a thought about this questions no?? hahaha ! Although, i've been wanted to ask last time but on sept 3 i should've receive the ans and know the ans ..

So, Lets just forgt about this questions.

OcToBeR ~~

well... hello hello ~~~ so long din touch my blog dy ~ i miss u my bloggy ~~~ XD what im gonna post today?? well nothg ~ im gonna head for my another blog ~ here is too public ~ LOLx ~ just kidding~  Nothing i can write much ~ just wish that i have another good day and hopefully tomorrow nite is a good day~ im not gonna run .. haha ! HaZe ~~ can i run to u for awhile?? LOLx !!! im just kidding anyway ~

Things started to change since sept 3rd after those mail i received ~ hahaha !!! nyan ~ <3 oh no~~ suddenly somethings pop out from my tiny little brain ~~ my beloved fren gonna leave soon >.< baaaaaaa... i don't like it ... duno why ... hahahha !!! thats all for today ~ back to my work ~ XD

SepTemBeR

Time FLY so fast ~~ and now i feels like my journey need to stop awhile, I'm tired... i duno what i'm thking, i'm so blank right now yet i still got alot thgs in my mind that i should stop thking of... really it feels like ... erm.. duno how to decribe ... hurts?? nahhhhh ~ erm.. wat nehh.. sei lor ~ english fail jor ~ XD

Oh well, things gonna be so different now.... i'll stop everything that i should hv stop earlier.. after telling me everythg ~ XD tats gonna be the last **** and i'll step out of it.. i nvr knw tat it would be this fast ~ LOL !!! guess tats it. Move On ~ =.=" stubborn sei me ~ XD

The following days... how its gonna be? gonna put tis aside and face another thgs of it. well thn, wish you all the best and happy owes ~ XD

Guess my mind is blank since the whole saturday and i thk the following days oso will be like that ~ LOL !!! XD can i hv a good slp?

BaNG ~

what im going to write in my blog?? hahaha.... nthg.. just to remind myself thgs ~ dont gv a damn bout ppl thgs ^^

And of Coz yea i DOESNT need a CARE remember that for those reader who view my blog. CARE = Troublesome ~

BANG ~!

FeAr No MoRe

Seems like its gonna rain soon ~ the thunder is roar-ing and its scary ~ when i stand outside i can feel the wind blowing and the sound of the wind ~ when i close my eyes its calm me down but when i open my eyes its dark.. pitch black sky without any star blinking.. when i stare at the sky it feels lonely somehow... empty sky without anythg... and here come the rain dripping down, i stand there for awhile cause i wish that the rain could wash away all my worries and trouble that i got, and hope that the sky would help me cry ..

The rain is getting heavier and the sound of the rain somehow creeps me out... but still i stand there...suddenly somethg come out from my brain "overcome ur fear" so do "overcome ur weakness"~ when u have fear here come ur weakness.. everyone can use ur weakness or ur fear to bring u down and you can never win. Thats why i try to hide everythgs from the begining but somehow i spill it out some and its feel weird.. i have to get back to my oldself cover up everythg my weakness my fear...

Sometimes when u really need someone be there for you its hard and no one will be there, cause not everyone or maybe no one will say or call you or even text you or write in the fb says "Hey, i need you be ther for me or Hey im sad accompany for awhile" most of them or maybe just few of thm will call around or chat around or text around asking like "hey you free today? wanna go get some drinks?" or maybe some of thm prefer chating around or texting their friend to shake off their problems. Well, maybe some of ur frens can notice u're in trouble and they ask "somethgs happen?" haha ~ some of them will say "nthgs happen" well this is me somehow ~ "NEVER TELL UR SHIT OUT" hahaha !! coz even u say it out no one can help they listen only nothg can be help thats the truth, hmm.. they say "u will feel much more better if u say it out" but for me its still the same.

Someone like me maybe wont understand that sentence but start from now i wont tell wont ask. When you all say dun care bout you or ur stuff, i'll respect that and i wont ask anymore unless i gone crazy. I will guess everythg myself and i'll get my answer by searching around even it tooks me alot of times. I thk maybe im busybody afterall =.=" hmmm... tat make sense XD Forever i wont understand what humans thk i should keep silence after all =.= coz i realize that even i ask i wont get any answer .. even i get the ans its all a lie duno why but i just know it. And to H i thk sumthg happen towards u.. u did admit u lie and indeed u always answer every question i have in the past u nvr even lie to me since i met you, i still remember u even tell me who u are wif and list down the name XD its really funny at tat time ~ or who u are alone wif even u know i will bite u after u say out XD hahaha ! but thats is past now i hope everythg gonna be just fine soon ~ cheers ~

seems like i bluff alot ~i should go fool around awhile ~

what NexT?

seems like i'm having a compicated life here XD althought i got nothings to do yet i gt thgs to settle ~ wuahahahahahaha !!!! weird life after all ~ sometimes i wanna go back to the past~ a happy past nt a trouble past XD but sumtimes i still prefer now ^^ meeting with new friends ~ hohoho ~ but the past is following meeeee here O.O ~~ shoo shoo past go away ~ hahaha ! dun bug into my current life ~ LOL

Seems like i very seldom going with my friends those i always hang out with but now i don't know what happens its like no one wanna or maybe they have their own friends to hang out with or things to do. well... erm its seems that way ~~ LOL ~( self-comfort ) hahaha! but as for me i did hang out with others gang when my friends dn have any activities or what.

Somehow i did go out at the middle of the night just to meet up with one of my friend...erm wait--- issit fren?? erm... let me thk.....ex-g.f ? no no ... ex-friend?? no no... enemy? LOL i DUNO =.= AHA !!! i know !! stranger !!! yeaaa ~ that sounds better no? but i dun thk so also.. arggghh whatever lar ~ just take is as one of my beloved galfriend in the past ^^ LOL ~ sounds COOL ! hahaha ! im crazy ~~ nyahahahha! well, whatever it is hope things can settle soon ~ mehhhhh~

those who peek on my blog buy me some sweets neh ~~~ XD wuahahaha ~

To EveRyOnE

haha ~ hello hello hello~~ i'm back everyone and my blog ~ i miss you ~ LOL! hahaha~ okok, be serious for awhile now~ to all my friends and friends and friends sorry to make you guys worried bout me and especially sorry to "J" worried bout me so much~ haha ~ i promise i'll fix thgs up and get back to myself, just bare with it for awhile and you all can stop worry about me now. i can handle thgs on my own ^^ cheers !!

WilL we BeComE StranGerS AgaIn?

The Truth is Every moment, Every Day, Every Hours i've been missing you, haha~ how i wish to spend a great time with you, somehow things just wont go smooth as i thought and this makes me think of something that i should not have been giving a thought about it.. when u told me that you got somethg to tell me and u are serious on it im kinda surprise and hoping that its not the things that i wanna hear about it. im kinda greedy >.< just hate that.

I should not have get into that kind of life and you have been telling me that everything will be just fine and i believe that too but somehow its not that easy when u have step into the life and getting out is harder then i thought. At 1st i dont wanna step out from this but from what my friend ask me the same questions as owes but this time the way of asking is different and im kinda surprise with those words and i understand that somehow.

This few days or week perhaps, alot of stuff i dont wanna hear or scared to hear about it keep going into my ears =.=" at 1st i just dont wanna believe it but somehow it did happen. hahaha ~ anyway, u did tell me its so unfair to me and i accepted it so its my fault anyway to ruin ur current life, im so sorry in that, i might give u a difficult time and trust me i will make ur life back to normal but of coz it might be abit pain at 1st for you im trying to be honest here but as for me the pain will be much more greater thn the previous one i think ~ bahahahaha ~ even typing it out here i can feel the P of myself, LOL ~ haha..

I dont know what ans you will give me although i really really really dont wanna it to be like this.. i really wish that it wont happen. i admit that i always wish that u are beside me even i dont have the time or wat i still will reply all of ur messages i will never missed it unless sumthgs really going on with me. I always remember every word u tell me although i owes pretend duno, haha.. you owes makes me laugh though ^^ hehe.

ChEeRs ~

A glass of cocktail and a few drinks ~ makes my day but somehow it's still tasteless >.< but somehow i enjoy my night chit chat and bluff there ^^ thanks buddy ^^ you did make me laugh and forgt bout thgs for awhile ~ ^^

Still there is someone i wanna reach for yet i cant ^^ haha ~ funny rite ~ a weird sentence after all ~ be there or be gone ~ do it or fail ~

oh well, i will be tough as always ^^ hmm... back to my previous self? haha !! keep everythg for myself and burried it under my pillow ~

CHEERS ~~ raise ur glass and get drunk !!! XD

WeIrD

hmmm... 1st i gonna shout is HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEONG !!!! haha !! may all ur wish come trueeee yaa ~ and of coz im gonna FORCE u save a wish for me ~ ^^

Today seems fun having dinner with with all my frens, but yet i cant believe when we go alfresco i cant even finish up my drink!!! my "illusion" drink... i think really somethings wrong with me even my baka butai-chan fren ask me are u ok why u cant finish up ur drinks =.="

I think still ther is problem with me and i know it but somehow i ignore the problem ... haha... no appetite for few days.. cant sleep well, cant even be my normal self ... "wound can be heal, and scars will remain" what else should i do? i give myself 1 week to get myself back rather .. will i success? hard to say.. maybe? nothing is impossible rite??

I'm tired somehow... at home thgs will just pop-ing up from brain ... cause i couldnt get the answer ... just questions from myself asking "WHY?" i tried to make myself busy and go out with my fren having fun just to put all my questions behind and thats will make me stops thinking for awhile... i duno why i can easily fall asleep at my friend house but not mine =.=" maybe much secure?? much more warm? ned a hug to slp? ... =.=" whack my head better ^^ much more faster to fall asleep~ haha ~

well, nothg much to say now ~ gonna hug my lovely little devil pillow slp now ~ NITEZ everyone~ muacksss

Losing myself

"you are just a normal human, you are not a robot or anything else, its ok to just 'rain' "... well, its true on what u said ... i should just "rain" cause it might feels good, hahaha... i admit that its really hard to bare with ... if you hug me longer i thk i might "rain" ... but still i hold it, haha! i know it really feels good when someone is there for you when u are down or anythg.. you remind me of that cause i have been hold everythg for myself since thn... im losing myself somehow, what should i do now? im lost ... anyone can show me the road? can i find u just for a hug? haha. The scar still remain >.<

QuesTioNs ~

it's JULY !!! yahoo !!! hopefully i can have a lucky month~ hmmm... well, from my previous post ... i havent spill it out yet .. haha.. cause i just don't where to start and how to say it out, DAMN myself .. hahahaha ! ohwell, i will find one day .. soon enough i think..,

ok, questions ~ what are you thinking now? i want to know.... im getting blur and blur dy with this.. im tired of this...

cheerssss for myself ~ dummy christine ~ XD

Accident ~

yea, great ~ what a wonderful june for me to start with, a great accident = a great day to start ~ @#$%^&* it happens becoz of sumthgs bother me? or wad? i should shut my brain now from thking.

PicTuRe of The DaY XD

muahahahhahaha !! wondering what am i laughing at XD oh well, who cares ^^ as long as im happy thats all for sure ~ waking up early in the morning just to go out wif my babe taking pictures and walking around the beach while waiting for "breakfast" with bunch of our so call CRaZy frens~ hahaha ~ its feels good walking down the beach cant believe MIRI hv such a nice view in da morning ~ lets see what kind of weird pic i took ~ LOL

hmmmmm........ doesnt feel like MIRI beach XD waaaaaaaa ~!! MIRI gt such a nice view wor ~ XDI love this PIc ~ hahaha ~ my model LOL !!!~ cool dao ~ or emo ?? XDLOL ~ im busy texting huh? wonder when she took tis pic ^^

Here is the prove !!!! she WRITE it !! " Wei JEFF, LIANG are PIGS" haha ~ suppose to be "WEI= Steve but end up when we read it become like what the pic shows ~ XD

wooo~~ seems like im having a great time today ~ ^^ lalalala ~ somebody just whack me now ~ XD i wont hit u back ~ LOL !! too happy dy ~ nyahahahaha ~ well im lazy to type it all inside here now ^3^ coz im sleepy ~ lets keep this happiness forever ~XD cheers ^^

NvR StOp ThInKinG

arghhh...... now at tiz moment im so so so so damn pisst off !!!! not pisst off i thk is duno how to decribe ... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whewwww........ feel much more better ~ LOLx ...

ask me not to thk? i can promised that but still there is another thg bother me again, im so damn down rite now.... well, i better get some slp now... my story will be another blog ~ secret of mine ? haha ~ damn myself thn ~

WhAt A DaY ~

what to say about today ...... going to my fren house having a drinks... omg tat was awesome XD but somehow i thk tis is the day i wanna get change i know too much things and suddenly i feel like being dumb is a good way ~ no ned to be sad, no ned to feel anythg, no ned to think anything just to be happy thats all ^^

today is the 2nd time i end up with tears on my eyes ~ XD LOL ~ wat else can i say? u guys sure kinda curious huh~ well u to tell the truth u not gonna knoe it coz tats my problem and this is my blog and after u read this blog forget about it ~ hahahahahha ~ tats all im gonna say ~ just to realese my feeling at here ~ but it feels kinda great ~ at least i knoe more about somethgs ~ and i have learnt more thgs from tat ~ haha ~

OuTing AgaIn

another outing today with different gang of friends ~ LOLx ~ sounds like i got alot of differents types of gang??? hahaha ~ actually not really i think, many of my friends thought that i have ALOT of friends but i myself don't think so ~ hahaha ~ maybe i just love to make new friends ^^
well well, lets see what i did today ~ seems like i'm having a long chat with few of my friends like always ... talking CRAPS bluffing here and there without using our brain just spill out what ever we like XD ~ going KFC for our second round just to have supper?? or suffer? hahaha ~ which one oso will do ^^

ahem~ there is something i did today ... hehe..AGAIN i CREATE another BLOG for myself~ seems like i love to write thgs down ~ hohoho ~ btw tell u guys wat "i dont use proper english here cause i just dont like it" i LOVE free STYLE writing and i LOVE gramma mistake ~ XD this is just the way i am ~ nyahahahahaahha

i kiss a girl and i like it ~~~ la la la la ~ damn i love thiz song dont know why ~ =.=" maybe while i'm writing tis blog im listening to this song XD kinda infected dy ~ ^^

CrAzY nite

i cant believe my fren just come over to my place to ply with his camera XD shooting light~ hahahaha ~ btw we have a nice exercise for few hours holding the torch light moving up and down just to write down our name ... in the end FAIL ~ wuahahahaahahha !!!

seems like im gonna create an event in FB to get all my frens have a good exercise ~ woo hoo ~ XD

ToDay was a FaIRy TaLe ~

woo hoo~ today is just like a dream ~ XD hahaha ~ i woke up around 6 am in the MORNING !! roll around the bed aimlessly till 7.oo am ~ hahahaha ~!! what a weirdo huh ~ This whole morning seems like I'm doing non sense stuff along with two of my friends ~ LOL ~ stalk PPL !!! tat the weirds thing i ever did !!! hahahaha !!!

well, tats fun after all ~ not like we are killing people or burning people's house ~ hehe ~ next time i should bring along my camera with SUPER LONG LENS !!! muahahahahaha !! capture every moments we have ~~ ^^ i should maintain like this from now on ~ wake up early in the morning ~ muahahahhaha !! ( u guys cant believe what i just said rite? ) ahem* i will try my best~ hohoho ~

Answ3r ~

this week i have been thinking alot of hellish stuff..... all thosse stuff just keep coming in, questions keep poping out, and im searching every answer for every questions that come to me all in one time, well.. seems like all the questions i have for myself have come to a conclusion and i have finally puzzle it up all the stuff i have been through as well as those acting the person did.. i FINALLY figure it out somehow..

so, somehow i just realize that from the begining is just a game you set up, lucky im clever enuf did not fall in ur game, seems like u are trying to drag me into ur so call GAME, lets see...the more i think the more i should just join the game u give it to me, i know what u wan and i can assure you that the things WONT happen on me or u and i will WIN the game no matter what, tomorrow u will see whats gonna happen and how i have change into and also you mess with the wrg person.

Also, i had enough of puzzling all the stuff, it was a shock when yesterday night i keep think what is going on that you still keep doing that, now i kinda know it since someone told me that, all stuff u told me is kinda LINK when i put it all together i get the real answer of it.

haha~ no matter how many shitty stuff of hellish things happen to me i can HANDLE it in MY WAY~ hmm.. although its tiring when u need to do things and still people ask u things that u dont wanna hear or answer about it, i wanted to avoid it but seems like not all i can avoid it anyway... running away from the truth is not a best solution somehow XD so i decide to stand on my ground and prepare for everythg, every shit you people wanna ask, every answer u wan from me !!!!

SrY~

What i thought was a dream,

Was as real as it seemed a provilege

When i wanted to tell you,

i made a mistake, i walked away,

Gomenasai for everything, i know i let you down

Gomenasai tillthe end like i do now

when i wanted to call you,

And ask you for help

I stopped myself

hUman =.=

i just don't understand why cant "you say HI "to us even though i said HI to you and say "eh, u guys also come over hor" but somehow you guys just ignore us .... at least you say a HI or AT LEAST turn back and smile =.=" .....

what i can say is just BLAME on me today for canceling coming out with you guys and i end up with going out with others, i cant explain much coz i don't like explain thgs the more i explain the more u guys gonna say I'm giving excuse rite? this what human owes do ~ To tell the truth I'm abit angry since u guys ignoring me at that moment only but now im not ^^

Just wanna remind you those who is reading my blog " if ur mood is not good or what don't scold ur frens or saying those harsh words it might hurt them but if you do that pls apologize to them after what you have done" ~

WiSh ~

Tik Tok Tik Tok ~ hour by hour pass.... sumtime i wish i could turn back the time we all spend togther with all the jokes and laughter ~ but sumtime i wish that i can stop the time.... haha ~ well in dream i can STOP the time XD ... hehe... what else should i expect now?? now i like the way i am now ~ staying with all my friends and get to meet new friends

well this is just perfect because all of us have fun ^^ and im lucky enough to meet such a wonderful friends and never thought that we can get so close in such a short time ~maybe all of us is kinda talkative XD i just LOVE that ~~ muahahahahaha~ im glad that i meet you jamie, aaron, chern, and sam,

p.s LOVE ya all ~ J.T miss ya too XD wuahahaha ~

wOndeRing ~

i wonder if my fren still in a bad mood ??? he seems very piss off that day ... kinda scary 1st time in my life i see him so so so piss off ... i should just ask him what happen but now i realize that he is angry at me o.O i wonder what did i do make him so piss off... we have been fren for so long, but i owes thk he is a weirdo ~ hahahaha !! the way he talks the way he bluf the stuff he likes and the song he listen to ALL is WEIRD to me XD

i hope he is ok now ~ pray hard he wont angry at me again ~ hehe ~ old folk says "true fren nvr betray or angry at you even you did somethg wrg, they will forgv you and be ther for u whenever u need him/her" p.s , i thk tats my own slogon XD

Nvr thought Of it ~

finally im back home ~ hehe ~ having starbucks wif my fren, oh yea thats feel so good ~ hahaha !! sit ther chating for all night long ~ bluffing here and there~ well, i can juz say that after the starbucks thgs get change like i nvr thk of it would happen......

what done is done, and im gonna get along with other bunch of frens before thgs get ugly~ duno why but i thk i shuld ~

Re-think AbOuT it ~

You remind me about someone else which i dont wanna remember for the rest of my life, but when i think back its like what am i thinking at that moment XD~ Now i feel like im turning into another person which i feel good rite now XD doing crazy stuff much more ~ (nt crazy stun ok)

if u you never show up in my life i think im still the way i am before but now u are standing rite in front of me which makes me wanna hang out more with my frens XD wuahahahaha ~ hope that we all just stay as we are now XD cheers ~

ANoTher Day~

another day another journey ~ seems like today i went to drink again with my friends=.=" haiz ~ lucky i have my excuse becoz of driving ~ muahahahahaha !! well well, today i have another news from my Bestfrens they really care about me and im really glad i have them besides me whenever im in trouble~

hmm.. 1st im gonna say sorry to my bestfren leong for worring me too much until jump out from his sleep worring about me being kidnap or what so ever ~ hahaha ~ but well i promise that i wont gv u another problem ~ and also i wanna gv my fren w.l a big kiss for telling me the truth so that i will be prepared ~ hehe ~

anyway ~ i PROMISE you that i wont gv u guys another trouble ^^ hehe ~ but still im gonna bite u guys ~ hehe

Valentine's day

nthg much to say seems like i ruin my frens day ~ XD hahahaha ~ well hopefully my fren get along togther ^^ in Feb 14 ~ i reli have a great day ~ and somehow i feel so sorry to my frens XD hehe ~ well gotta sleep now ~ nite nite everyone ~

Al Fresco ~

wuahahaha ~ im glad that most of my fren join me at al fresco drinking ~ XD as u can see i still can bloging here ^^ which means im not drunk ~!! yahooooooo~!!! anyway i have alot of fun with my friends today CHEERS to them !!! yeaaaaaa ~

hope that we can still hang out togther just like today ^^ i should bring my SLR camera with me today T.T not much picture is taken with my crazy bunch of frens ~ phew.... its almost 3 am now i should get to bed now or else im gonna become panda soon~ MUCKSSS ~!!

Today JouRney

SUSHI ~!!!!! see the list ESCAPADE sushi in BRUNEI ~ the best sushi ever XD and this prove that MIRI people is so free go to brunei just for a breakfast sushi thn back MIRI~ weird huh ~ hahahaha ~ well thats how miri people do when they have free time cant blame them also coz miri doesnt have much nice sushi to eat ~hahaha ~ lets see how much we eat i thk around 150 brunei money, wao~! but quite cheap^^ hehe~

now i just realize that this brunei money in front is written "Brunei Darussalam" and the back is Singapore ~ weird ~ maybe they wanna save cost making tiz money XD hahahaha~

the back of the $20 is written " SINGAPORE" hahaha ~!! but u can still see the brunei logo on the right side XD

just a picture of our passport ~ hahahaha !! to show the PROVE ~ haha~ well~ tomoro im going to BRUNEI again ! hunt for sushi ~ i thk soon im gonna dislike sushi ~ hehe ~ well, thats all for today bluf ~ atually nthg much to wirte about in this blog just to update myself ~ hahaha ~

Great day ~

ahem~ finally i have time to bullshit sumthg on my blog XD ~ lets see what i have done today, opps ~ now oready 1;26 am should say what i have done yesterday~ hehe, its still CNY !! and i LOVE hanging out with my bunch of CRAZY friends yesterday~ going to each of their house eating their stuff XD it just feel so good !!! messing with their thgs and bluffing here and there ~ hahahaha !!

Well, hopefully the next year CNY will be still the same ^^ this year i think im changing abit.. wooo did i just tell myself I'M START TO CHANGE? hahaha ~ I'm turning into a hyper girl who loves to hanging out in AL FRESCO recently ~ XD im gonna drag all my frens out to have fun now ~ yeeeee haaaaaa !!! but sumtimes reminds me back when im still living in K.L having the crazy time with my friends yam cha here and ther from nite till the next morning ~ i miss the time ~ hahaha ~ now everyone going to different direction and places ~ hope those bunch of crazy fella having a great time now ^^

hmm~ let me list out today crazy frens i went out with, w.l, c.l, Seng, loon, bear, vic, chan, jam, steve, joey,leong, sam, Ace,jeff, ~ thats all i thk for now ~ maybe i left out some =.=" they will kill me if they knew it ~ haha ~ i love you guys MUCKSSS !!! hahaha~